Bus Rides

Today I learned a few lessons. I learned that the more I try to save my time, the more I often lose it. I also learned that self pity is the nemesis of my joy.

I feel like I learned this lesson the hard way. Some people that I love were having a dinner party tonight, and I almost went, but decided to stay at school and do homework instead. Sometimes the task oriented side of me craves the completion of tasks so much... So, I decided not to go, but couldn't concentrate too much on what I was meaning to do. So, I got on the bus to go home. Now I don't usually take the bus, so today was a novelty for me. The only thing is, I got on the bus going the wrong way. It's a good thing I live in Saskatoon because any other city and I could have been long gone for up to 3 hours, going to the other side of the city and back, and stopping every 2 blocks. At first I thought it was funny, then I started getting frustrated, then I decided to try to do some work, then I called my mom. That was the last straw. Sometimes it's great to talk to my mom, but her love for me can cover over a multitude of my sins, including self pity. That's the one that plagued me today, and I gave in shamelessly. So, after 1.5 hours on the bus, getting off at the wrong spot, and falling on my rear in the middle of an intersection, I feel like I"ve learned some lessons. I need to be reminded to value people more than time, and that self pity really is the nemesis of my joy.